I hope you all have had a nice Christmas, I had a great one despite being in hospital, it was relaxing, calm and I got to sit about all day not having to worry about rushing to one place or another and just doing my own thing.
I had a bit of a “magical” moment on Christmas evening, when looking out the window over Belfast there was a lovely twinkle of all the street lights almost as if they were going off completely and back on again. I can only assume this was because there were more people sitting in the house with all the lights on, watching tv and draining more electricity than normal. It was nice though.
Boxing day was spent watching football all-day and nothing much else has happened this week been pretty quiet, I got moved into a bay. Just next door from where I was, I hadn’t realized that it was a bay and just another side room which tells you how small it is. There are three people in it, two on one side and me on the other and the bathroom is beside me but I have a lot more room than the other two, in a cove out of the way and it is quite nice.
They snore though and their machines beep a lot but it doesn’t make too much of a difference to me, I’m barely sleeping, maybe 4hrs at night if I’m lucky then possibly a nap during the day but not always, it’s ample though.
I put on just shy of 4kg this week, was hoping for 5 which was obviously a bit of a stretch, pleased with it all the same and getting close to my personal target. I can actually feel a bit of muscle coming back on to my legs with the exercises I’ve been doing too. All is going pretty well on that front.
And so, the day before it all starts properly, I’ve been avoiding watching films and tv as tomorrow I’ll be a bit groggy and drowsy with having the peritin, it will be hard to concentrate on things like reading and probably won’t be able to get for a walk as they are trying to get it started earlier this week with the chemo, both, and probably won't attempt one after. It’s been quite late the last few times, would be nice to just get it done and dusted earlier then we'll see how thing are going to pan out.
Tonight has been a night for enjoying the moment I am in and listening to music. I’ve been savoring exactly where I am, what will be happening and what all I’ve been through and it makes me happy,
I may have the ‘if something can go wrong I’ll find another way that’s completely unexpectedly worse’, but I also have the ‘if something can go right I’ll find a way that’s completely unexpectedly better’. Keeps things exciting, you couldn’t make half of it up and I wouldn’t change a thing.
I don’t know anybody who’s been slapped in the face by the tail of a falcon in the middle of a forest in NI, nor many idiots that have slid down the steep side of Slemish, just remembering a cow took a disliking to me that day too at the entrance and had to climb over fences to get out. Also, the time I went for a walk along the Ulsterway towards the Giants Causeway followed by a herd of sheep and the fireball, whoosh!!! The African music video, chasing the tractor around Castlewellan, the otters and the flying fish lol oh oh and the fox watching me fly the kite.