33 - Goes to baby massage with Noah next morning, Slept with back to door in girls room. Agreed to allow him in and got back together, never seen him so fierce so allowed it and had to agree that she’d let him sleep with her. Didn’t spend time with the other mums after massage and went to the hospital as scar still sore, tapped blood. Opened up to nurse to get help, phoned refuge and stayed the night, told them about Ryan penetrating her waking her up raping her. And it was easier to just go along with it. Get 9 day restraining order.