30 - Move in day, peace. Gets things from hotel, spys new family. Ryan has kids coming weekend. Gets 2nd hand stuff from Oxfam etc, every room is a playroom. Diego comes for lesson. Stays a while after. Feels his comfort for a while after he leaves.

31 - Sophie is having nightmares, Ciara comforts her. Can’t let Ryan find out. Ryan can’t take kids, moved, landlord selling. Living with coworkers no suitable for kids, wants to look after kids at hers. Sophie’s birthday party.

32 - Ryan convinces her to let him stay, says the shared accommodation isn’t working and she lets him stay a few days. Edges closer each evening on the sofa, hand on hip, grabs her, tries to kiss her. Earlier at party Sinead has a go at him. Diego calls for lesson and she tells him to leave.

33 - Goes to baby massage with Noah next morning, Slept with back to door in girls room. Agreed to allow him in and got back together, never seen him so fierce so allowed it and had to agree that she’d let him sleep with her. Didn’t spend time with the other mums after massage and went to the hospital as scar still sore, tapped blood. Opened up to nurse to get help, phoned refuge and stayed the night, told them about Ryan penetrating her waking her up raping her. And it was easier to just go along with it. Get 9 day restraining order.

34 - Diego invites her on trip to Mayo with friends so the have to speak English for upcoming tests. Ciara fog clears, happy, joy, allows to read. Diego got accepted to go to New York. She goes to 3 rocks towers on the way home with kids, they could see it from the hotel, kids allowed to go off and enjoy running around. Sinead’s email.

35 - Sinead says about coming over to England for a couple of days, mum is unwell. Mum has done up a room for Noah and the girls to stay. Kids stay with Cathy as they can’t leave.

36 - Ryan gets access again to see kids, he’s ragin she went away to see her mum. Ciara worried about kids all day, return time comes and passes and no show, she goes to the house share and they had no idea. Went back to the old house and checked keys and works in door, finds the girls upstairs but no Noah. Girls say Noah wouldn’t feed on bottle. Garda come and look for Ryan. Eventually find car, tell Ciara and she knows where he will be. Ciara finds them and takes Noah, Ryan leaves. Noah cold but alive.